We went to the clinic this morning for my blood work and u/s appointment. My heart sank a bit when I saw that Dr. F is the on-call doc this weekend. He’s not my fave doctor, but he’s also not the worst I’ve met in the RE world. Anywho, Dr. F has me assume the position, and there they are: The Same Eight Follicles. Five of them were, in Dr. F’s words, “Hanging there in the background” and were very small and immature. Of the three potential follies, they have not grown any since my last u/s two days ago and still aren’t contenders. I could tell by his expression and carefully chosen words that Dr. F was very much not pleased, but didn’t want to completely destroy my hopes. He told me he’s upping my Menopur, effective today. I’m only upping it from two vials to three, so it’s not a drastic increase. I go back in on Labor Day for follow up b/w and u/s.
What all this means is that my ovary is NOT RESPONDING to the stims. Like, not at all. Not even to the super mega doses I’ve been bombarding it with every single day. What the what?! I’m pissed. If I didn’t need it so bad, I’d like to take my ovary out and kick its ass right about now. A few months ago I got the EXACT SAME FOLLICLE RESPONSE with four or five days of Clomid. Clomid, people! Even more so, I started this current round pre-stims with eight follicles. Meaning the follies showing are the ones I grew all on my own. Meaning all these stims have had absolutely no effect whatsoever.
Needless to say, I’m super upset by all this. It could change. The increased meds could help. It’s still early, I guess. I’m clinging to hope right now, praying to God. I’ll have to finish this post later when my head is clearer…
Prayers currently accepted.