The results are in! Beta #1 was this morning—BFP! Booya! My hcg level was 58.4. Currently I’m 9dp5dt (or, on a natural cycle, 14dpo). I return to the clinic on 13dp5dt for my second beta. Various online forums assure me that the results of a second beta are even more important than the first beta.
Confession time: I already knew.
Yeah, yeah, I know I said before that I wouldn’t test early or symptom count. And honestly, I did NOT symptom count. But therein lies the problem: I had no symptoms (thank you, Crinone). With no symptoms to obsess over, well, life became boring and the wait seemed so eternal, and well….
I caved.
On 5dp5dt, I tested: BFN. On 6dp5dt, I tested again: another BFN. Seeing those single lines were a bummer, but I knew it was still very early. At best, it proved no false positives from a leftover trigger shot hcg.
All this changed on the morning of 7dp5dt though. Because that test? It had a faint line! So, since I clearly had nothing better to do with my time, I dutifully drove like a wildwoman to Walmart and bought four more brands of tests just to be sure, and saw even more faint lines the same morning. (*Incidental side note: The chick at the register who rang up my multiple boxes of HPTs was very visibly pregnant herself. I didn’t realize this when I initially got in her line. She finished ringing me up and, as I was leaving, smiled and said, “Good luck! I wish you lots of baby dust.” Ahh, a fellow TTC-er! Because, seriously, who in real life uses the term “baby dust” like it’s a totally normal thing to say? She completely made my day.*) In the p.m. I got a stronger line on the FRER and a “positive” on the Clearblue. Rinse and repeat, you get the idea…. I’ve taken no less than twelve HPTs in the last 48 hours and every single one of them has been a BFP.
When my nurse asked me at this morning’s beta whether I had tested at home, I casually replied, “Nope. I held out.”
I’m not sure why I lied. Maybe I was expecting a lecture. Maybe I still wanted to keep this thrilling secret something that was all mine. Maybe I wanted her to feel like she would be giving me genuinely unexpected good news when she called me with the results. Who knows.
Happy news. Terrifying news. In 4 years of TTC and 12 years of marriage and 33 years of life I have never seen before seen two lines. Ever. Not even on my m/c because I didn’t even know when it happened that I was preggers. There’s a small army of used HPTs under our bathroom cabinet that I can’t bear to throw away.
As my new Walmart friend says, “Baby dust to you all.”
The Endo Zone 
Congratulations!! Wishing you a blissful next 9 months or so. 🙂
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Thank you 🙂
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Wahooooooo! I KNEW IT!!!
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Been waiting for the post all day, so exciting!
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Aww, I was thinking of you too! You’ve been like my online cheerleader through all this. How’s your TWW coming along?
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OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! This is the best day ever for you! So happy for you and holy crap, happy dance!
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Thank you 🙂 I hope to read a similar post from you in six weeks or so!
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Yay!!! Congratulations!! 🙂 🙂 🙂 Fingers crossed for great numbers on beta #2!
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Thank you 🙂
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Congratulations, totally awesome for you! LOVE your walmart story. 🙂
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Thank you 🙂 Up until that moment I’d been thinking how much I despise going to Walmart lol. God’s funny like that.
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Awesome news. Congrats!
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Thank you 🙂
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Congratulations!
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Thank you 🙂
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Congrats!
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Thank you 🙂
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OH MY GOSH!!! I am so happy for you!!!!! Truly, I am so happy to have found you on here because seeing your story come full circle is beautiful and I’m so happy to know of it!!! Congratulations!!
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Aww thank you! That means a lot 🙂
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eeek so happy for you! huge congratulations 🙂 x
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Thank you 🙂 Our transfers were so close together, we’re on the same timeline!
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I’m late to the game.. AGAIN! (I was in P’burg over the weekend watching the steelers lose 😦 ) I’m am so happy to see this!! I have to be honest, It’s not always the case where I am genuinely happy for someone. But I have read your blog from beginning to today, and I can not be more happy for you. I haven’t even cracked the ice burg in terms of treatment, and your a vet. You are finally getting your chance! I’ll be reading along as you progress!! Again, Congratulations 🙂 ❤
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Aww, a big Thank You all the way from Eagles land! Are you a fellow PA-er?!
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I’m not, but my DH is. Summerset (spelling?) We love going to P’burg. This time we stayed over night since it was a thursday night game, and of course it went into OT.
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Gotcha. One of my BFFS lives out that way 🙂
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Just read this….congrats!!!! Happy and healthy 9 months!!!!! 🙂 xo
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Thank you 🙂 Best wishes to you as well.
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