All’s Quiet on the Fertility Front

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Another month-long delay on updating this blog?  You guys are probably used to that by now, I’m hoping.  I’m such an unreliable blogger.  Really, there just hasn’t been much to say on the fertility front.  Here’s some mini highlights to tide you over though.

First, in an act of age-related desperation, I caved and purchased a fertility monitor. Well, a used one that is.  And before anyone “Ewwws!” me, the monitor was used one time, four years ago so c’mon now.  Besides, it’s not like I’m going to be licking the thing.  Even though urine is sterile, I still disinfected the crap out of the machine with rubbing alcohol as soon as I opened the package.  In its user manual, Clearblue “strongly recommends” that women not sell their used monitors, but…. psssssh…  I know corporate greed when I see it.

I spent $80 for the monitor itself, plus an extra $20 for three months’ worth of testing sticks. Thank you, Ebay, for the cheap deals!  Straight retail would’ve cost me $150 for the monitor and another $50 for the test sticks.  I was pretty stoked to save a few bucks while simultaneously dropping $100 for a machine that tells me when to have sex.  ‘Course I can’t actually use the monitor until my next CD1.  Update to follow on how it works!

Also, somewhere between now and my last post I turned 36.  *gulp*  That may have had something a lot to do with buying the fertility monitor.  The feeling of not being able to afford any more missed cycles is real.  Time’s a tickin’!  I feel all this self-induced pressure to finally resolve already, one way or another.  Jake and I are closing in on seven years (!) of TTC and anymore it’s all I can do to try just one more month… just one more month…. just one more month…

In other news, Intermenstrual Bleeding: It’s Still a Thing.  Except lately it’s been accompanied by new, weird pains in my lower uterus.  The best way to describe the pain is like someone inserts a needle into my skin sideways and then vigorously, repeatedly jerks the needle up and down, over and over.  The pain waxes and wanes and mostly occurs during my luteal phase.  It has me concerned.  But I’ve learned by now not to even bother an OB/GYN or RE with these kinds of legit concerns, because they just customarily dismiss me: “It’s only your hormones being out of whack,” “Nothing we can do about it,” “You should consider another IVF (because that will stop the pain???),” rinse. repeat.

My next step is to schedule a consult with the renowned Dr. Seckin in NYC about this issue.  He’s, like, THE dude to see if you suffer from endo and all your docs have basically written you off as an overly-emotional hypochondriac.  I was able to score incredible, awesome, unbelievable, AND amazing medical coverage through Jake’s new job, which will make my visit practically free.  The only catch?  I have to wait six months for my benefits to start (thank you, Pennsylvania, for the delay).  In the meantime, well, I don’t know.   I suppose that I’ll just deal.  Pain meds help.  Lots of pain meds….

Update to follow on the fertility monitor.  I get the impression that the monitor and I will become close buddies over the coming months.  Perhaps a cute nickname is in order?  Drop your suggestions in the comments below!

Peace.

 

 

 

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Author: Marixsa

Navigating the infertility waters and encouraging other mamas-in-waiting along the way.

12 thoughts on “All’s Quiet on the Fertility Front”

  1. Is it possible that the sharp needle-like pains you are feeling is actually Ovulation? Now that I am super in-tune with my body, I can tell without the need to pee on anything, that ovulation is occurring (and when I was TTC, temping verified it for me). Good luck! Hope the monitor helps!

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    1. I wish it were that simple. The pain begins about 6DPO and lasts until cycle end for 3 or 4 cycles now. Thanks for your input, always appreciated!

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  2. I’m so glad for your awesome insurance coverage. Wish it didn’t take that long. I don’t know how I’ll feel when I get to 36, but I’m not far off. Reading this felt like my future self. That every cycle counts feeling.

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    1. I missed a couple cycles last year for various reasons and now kick myself. The struggle is real! I thought you were much younger for some reason… other than infertility, 36 isn’t so bad. Promise!

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  3. I bought a used one too. I’m not dropping even more money than I already had to! The damn sticks are so expensive too, and long cycles like mine were (are?) made it more expensive! But I hope you and Eugene … okay maybe another name… (I’m not creative) hit it off.

    Great to hear about the coverage, though it isn’t active immediately! I hope the next 6 months fly by!

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  4. You totally cracked me up with the corporate greed part! I was so excited when I saw two new posts in your blog! I’m 24 and feel the same way. Everyone I personally know with endo had emergency surgery and had their ovaries removed so I feel like I’m on a timeline, even though I really should have plenty of time if I’m not letting fear take over. Forever praying for you! I am super curious about this machine and would love to hear a review on your routine of using it and such!

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  5. Hey there! I loved reading your post. You write well and in a manner fun to read. We are just 10 months into TTC, I can’t imagine 7 years! My prayers are with on this journey. Looking forward to seeing how your monitor works out for you. Feel free to check out my infertility blog on my page. I would love to hear your input.

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  6. My lartner and I have been trying for 3.5 years. We or should I say
    .. ‘I’ have just started my IVF medication. So far so good no issues although I am only 1 week in.
    Its so hard to keep believing as the time goes on but you have to fight for something x

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