Another month-long delay on updating this blog? You guys are probably used to that by now, I’m hoping. I’m such an unreliable blogger. Really, there just hasn’t been much to say on the fertility front. Here’s some mini highlights to tide you over though.
First, in an act of age-related desperation, I caved and purchased a fertility monitor. Well, a used one that is. And before anyone “Ewwws!” me, the monitor was used one time, four years ago so c’mon now. Besides, it’s not like I’m going to be licking the thing. Even though urine is sterile, I still disinfected the crap out of the machine with rubbing alcohol as soon as I opened the package. In its user manual, Clearblue “strongly recommends” that women not sell their used monitors, but…. psssssh… I know corporate greed when I see it.
I spent $80 for the monitor itself, plus an extra $20 for three months’ worth of testing sticks. Thank you, Ebay, for the cheap deals! Straight retail would’ve cost me $150 for the monitor and another $50 for the test sticks. I was pretty stoked to save a few bucks while simultaneously dropping $100 for a machine that tells me when to have sex. ‘Course I can’t actually use the monitor until my next CD1. Update to follow on how it works!
Also, somewhere between now and my last post I turned 36. *gulp* That may have had
something a lot to do with buying the fertility monitor. The feeling of not being able to afford any more missed cycles is real. Time’s a tickin’! I feel all this self-induced pressure to finally resolve already, one way or another. Jake and I are closing in on seven years (!) of TTC and anymore it’s all I can do to try just one more month… just one more month…. just one more month…
In other news, Intermenstrual Bleeding: It’s Still a Thing. Except lately it’s been accompanied by new, weird pains in my lower uterus. The best way to describe the pain is like someone inserts a needle into my skin sideways and then vigorously, repeatedly jerks the needle up and down, over and over. The pain waxes and wanes and mostly occurs during my luteal phase. It has me concerned. But I’ve learned by now not to even bother an OB/GYN or RE with these kinds of legit concerns, because they just customarily dismiss me: “It’s only your hormones being out of whack,” “Nothing we can do about it,” “You should consider another IVF (because that will stop the pain???),” rinse. repeat.
My next step is to schedule a consult with the renowned Dr. Seckin in NYC about this issue. He’s, like, THE dude to see if you suffer from endo and all your docs have basically written you off as an overly-emotional hypochondriac. I was able to score incredible, awesome, unbelievable, AND amazing medical coverage through Jake’s new job, which will make my visit practically free. The only catch? I have to wait six months for my benefits to start (thank you, Pennsylvania, for the delay). In the meantime, well, I don’t know. I suppose that I’ll just deal. Pain meds help. Lots of pain meds….
Update to follow on the fertility monitor. I get the impression that the monitor and I will become close buddies over the coming months. Perhaps a cute nickname is in order? Drop your suggestions in the comments below!