2020 So Far: A New Direction

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For months now, I’ve intended on joining the army of bloggers who faithfully post each week. It was even one of my 2020 resolutions!  But, one month into the new year, I haven’t been able to make it happen.

Until this week.

That’s my goal this year: to post weekly.

My blog has been dying a slow death the past couple of years, despite my earnest intentions to keep it updated. I’ve never been a huge social media poster to begin with (though I do stalk it on the regular). This blog feels different than social media in a way, but I’m not sure if it is indeed different. Throughout the course of my days something will often happen that causes me to think, “I should blog about that!”… but then I never do. Maybe it’s the effort required, since I’m not quickly posting a pic with a cute caption and moving along like most social media. Blogs take more thought, more intention, more planning. More work.

Through a long—and still continuing—process, I have moved on from the Trying to Conceive world to the Childless Not by Choice world. I’m still new to CNBC, and don’t yet have both feet firmly planted in it because I harbor some reluctance to completely let go of TTC. Is that due to stubbornness? Fear? Worry that I’ve given up too soon? Maybe it’s all three.  From what I can tell so far, the TTC world is a kind of subset of the general (fertile-aged) society. The CNBC world is a subset of that subset, and its defining lines are very blurry.

Since all of that is going on in my life, I’ll be making some changes to this blog in the coming months. So stay tuned! Among other things, I want to move to a new paid URL without losing content or subscribers, and also change the blog’s name. I plan to do more posting on exploring life CNBC and less with TTC, if anything at all. As for endometriosis, well I think I’ll always be blogging about that, because it’s the foundation of how I landed here in the first place! I do have a few upcoming posts in mind, so please, everyone, hold me to it to post weekly.

Until next time,

Peace. ❤

Author: Marixsa

Resolving infertility as childless-not-by-choice and encouraging fellow endo warriors along the way.

3 thoughts on “2020 So Far: A New Direction”

  1. It’s so hard to stay consistent once you’ve taken a break. I’ve had a really hard time posting regularly, even though I still have things to say, and I can’t believe I used to post as much as I once did, which wasn’t even as much as you did!

    Thanks for sharing about your journey. I can feel us drawing to a close in some sense because my own endo has started to involve more complications and I am getting some pressure to just remove everything. It feels strange for me because, as I said in therapy this week, we’ve been at this so long that I almost don’t know what to do without this thing driving me. It’s been almost the entirety of my marriage and much more than a handful of years, not to mention the decade before we started trying when I was having surgeries and treatments to try to save my fertility. It feels almost scary to think of not having that focus anymore— though, freeing in a way, too. I just don’t really know what to expect, if that makes sense.

    I’ll be thinking of you as you start to walk this new path and figure things out as you go. And I’ll be looking forward to some more updates as well!❤️


  2. Breaks are totally okay. I’ve taken one, not by choice but because work has gotten SOOoOoOOoOOo damn busy and I don’t have a lot of free time. 🙂 Promise me one thing, Stalker: post when you feel like it, when it feels right, when you have the time and the desire.

    And…I miss you. Not just your posts, but you. ❤

    I am so sorry you're having to even consider the future of TTC to CNBC. I've been there. I know it hurts. And sometimes it still fucking hurts. I'm here for you. As are we all. Internet hugs, text hugs, and (when you're sleeping and fully unaware): creepy, lingering hugs 😉

    Much love to you, woman. It's great to see you're back on, but don't feel like you have to.

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