Liebster Award Entry


I don’t know whether these blog awards are real or not, but, seriously, who really cares if there’s an actual award waiting on the other side?  It’s always a fun honor just to be nominated.

My beautiful friend AKL over at Baby Wanted: an IVF journey has nominated me for a Liebster Award.  AKL is one of the realest, funniest, and sweetest bloggers I’ve met since I began blogging.  Please check out her reads!  Thanks, AKL for the ‘nom and for writing such kind words about me!  I’m so glad we’ve connected.


  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and link to their post.
  • Answer the 11 questions they asked you.
  • Nominate 11 other bloggers, with your own set of questions.
  • Tag your chosen 11 bloggers, and don’t forget to tell them as well!


These are my answers to AKL’s questions:

1. When did you start blogging?

March 2015.

2. Why did you start your blog?

Jake and I were having a tough time getting pregnant, and I felt so alone in trying.  I had no clue there were places online for people like me until I discovered fertility blogs.  I’ve always expressed myself best through writing—although I don’t claim to be particularly stellar at it—so blogging sounded very healing.  It was also the desire of my heart to help other women in this sojourn and hopefully be a source of encouragement.

3. What do you do for your day job?

Paralegal by day, ninja by night.

4. Where are you located (city, country)?

Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, USA.

5. What has been your biggest regret in your life? 

There is no scenario in which I’d ever answer this question honestly.

6. What has been your greatest achievement? 

Graduating from college.  I don’t come from college people.  Growing up, there was zero expectation of ever attending college.

But because I lived fully on my own by age 18, I qualified for some program where the state paid my tuition; that got me through some college.  Later, through God’s provision via the generosity of a well-off in-law, I was able to complete my degree.  It took 8 years to get a 4-year degree, but I’m immensely grateful just to have finished.  It was only through the Lord’s sovereign arrangements that college happened for me.

7. What advice would you give to your 18 year old self? 

Don’t be so angry, don’t be so independent, don’t be so protective of your heart in that suit of armor you wear with spikes on the outside and ice on the inside.  Your decisions in life matter, YOU matter.  Things aren’t gonna stay this way forever, hun—this too shall pass.

8. Do you have a special or unusual skill that perhaps people don’t know about ? (I can sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star in Japanese)

I can sense when a cop is about to drive past.  Seriously!  I’ll just be walking down the road and I’ll think to myself, “A cop is going to drive by.” Like clockwork, one immediately does.  Craziest thing, this is.  But also useful. 😉

9. Where is your favorite city to visit?

My own—there’s always something going on in Philly.

10. How do you motivate yourself?

Whatever needs doing, I simply DO IT.  Doesn’t matter if I feel like doing it (I usually don’t) or if it can technically wait until tomorrow (it usually can).  Through God’s grace I have been given a strong sense of personal responsibility.  I’m tough, I have a can-do mentality, and am steadfast in whatever I put my mind to.  The simple act of starting something is all the motivation I need to finish it.

11. What do you hope for most in 2018?

It would be cliche to say a baby because, well, this blog….

In 2018 I most want RESTORATION: in my life, in my marriage, for my family, my health, my relationship with God.  In whatever form that happens, as long as it’s moving toward restoration then it’s headed in the right direction.

In no particular order, my nominated 11 bloggers are:

Delayed But Not Denied – Because my real-life friend seriously needs to get back to blogging.

Ditch the Bun – Infertility warrior cleverly disguised as a librarian.

In Pursuit of a Family – Because you always write such beautiful posts.

Be Realistic: Plan for a Miracle – Because you sojourn alongside me… from across the pond!

The Sky and Back – Because I miss your blogging.

Bloomin’ Uterus – *Only* the best endometriosis blog on the planet.

Dubliner in Deutschland – Overcoming infertility in a land far from home.

GeeksTravelingInJapan – Also battling infertility in a land far from home.

Woman With Endometriosis – Endo awareness proponent.

Hoping to be More Than a Dog Mom – From one dog mama to another.

Tales of a 30 Year Old Nothing – Because she’s real, relatable, and hilarious.


My 11 questions to the above bloggers:

1. Imagine that the blogosphere suddenly disappears—for whatever reason. What do you do?

2. What characteristic do you not possess at all?

3. Why did the chicken cross the road?

4. How do you face critical problems?

5. One thing about yourself of which you are most proud?

6. The happiest moment of your life?

7. A word which you hate to use?

8. What is your dream job?

9. What villainous character do you most admire, and why?

10. Item on your bucket list that you would be MOST upset if you didn’t accomplish.

11. If you could have lunch with any famous person, dead or alive, who would it be and what would you order?






2017 blog review.

I can’t be the only person who’s thrilled to see the end of 2017, amiright?  It wasn’t a good year for me like at all, both in Fertility Land and in my offline life.  I’m usually not the kind of person who classifies entire years as either ‘good’ or ‘bad,’ but 2017 was just straight up rough.   I’m still kind of stunned that I came out of it intact.

I’m clinging to hope of 2018 being worlds better!  So far it has been better, except that our elderly kitty, Grumpy Cat, fell ill this past weekend.  But God has been so very good and gracious in the situation, and I’m 100% believing that GC is in His excellent hands and will be okay.

Now that that’s out of my system, I thought it’d be fun to look back over my blog in 2017 and see what all went down. I’m like the worst at checking the stats to this site; I’m forever forgetting to look at that kind of thing!  I pulled the year’s stats and was surprised at which posts were most popular.  That’s how it is in the blog world I guess: some of what I though were my worst posts fared excellently.  Other posts that I [humbly] believed were pretty good, tanked.

Anyway, here’s a look back at the Top Five posts of 2017:

#5. Back at Square One:      an unforgettable ER visit and continued frustrations about IM bleeding

#4. Infertility and Job Interviews:     recounting a job interview gone very wrong

#3. Conceiving to Conceive:     post-surgical hope for a pregnancy

#2. Surgery Recap: Part 2 of 2:     entirely too wordy—and far too detailed—post-op musings


#1. Hysteroscopy #: Arcuate Uterus:    a 2016 post all about weirdly-shaped uteruses (or is that ‘uteri?’)

I’d like to think that this here ‘lil site has helped someone else struggling with fertility and endometriosis in 2017.  WordPress helpfully gave me this here map…:


… so I’m ever hopeful it has reached another person and helped her along her way in life, encouraged her, or let her know she’s not alone.

And rather than seeing this new year as twelve more tries at a baby, I am instead choosing to focus outwardly in 2018: What can I do this year to help others?  How can I be a blessing to other women? in my community? at my church? to my family?

Believing good things are in store this year, for myself and all my IF friends.




Photo Walk: Newtown, Pennsylvania

*Note: Non [in]fertility post. I need a break from the madness.

This month I participated in my first ever Photo Walk. After learning about Photo Walks from fellow endo warrior Lisa over at Bloomin’ Uterus, I just knew I had to sign up for one. They’re free, open to anyone, and held in cities, towns, and countries all over the place. A Photo Walk is a group of people who meet up for a couple of hours to take photographs of an agreed upon area. Attendees can take pics with fancy cameras, digital cameras, old school cameras, cell phone cameras… there’s no real rules.

Now I’m no photographer, and all I can claim as a bona fide camera is a decade-old digital model, but I do love taking pictures. So I figured why not?! Someday sooner than later though I would like to buy a nice camera. I really enjoy photography and definitely want to develop it into an actual hobby (see what I did there?).

My Photo Walk location choices came down to either Philadelphia or Newtown, Pennsylvania, which is a tiny suburb about 40 miles north of the city. I chose Newtown since I live in Philly and kind of see it all the time. I’d only been to Newtown once before and remembered it as being very charming and quaint. An afternoon of strolling and photographing far away from the hustle and bustle sounded lovely.

When I arrived to meet with my fellow Photo Walkers I was slightly disappointed. There were a dozen of us and, at 35, I was by far the youngest person there. (Silver lining: no babies or preggos!)  Our walk guide handed us maps of the historical area where we’d be photographing and off we went exploring, cameras in hand!

A few people—the professional types with their fancy lenses and camera bags—dropped out after only a few blocks. I have to admit, I too bailed halfway through because my group was moving so slowly and everyone seemed vaguely uncomfortable. But I did get to see several historical spots, meet some nice people, and enjoy an overpriced almond milk latte from an adorable cafe. That said, in the future I might sign up for a walk in a bigger city after all; maybe even stay for the entire walk next time.

Here’s some pics from my Photo Walk. You can click on any pic to enlarge it. As you can see, for reasons unknown even to myself I seem to have a penchant for taking pictures of doors… And if you look really closely, you might even catch a glimpse of yours truly (unintentionally) reflected in one of them.



Share Your World: March 30, 2017


I’ve been seeing  posts in my feed lately which are blogging challenges from Cee’s Photography. Some posts are Q&A’s, others are photographic. It’s so easy for me to run out of topics to blog about: the struggle is real! Intrigued, I checked our Cee’s site, which can be found here, and decided to take a blog challenge myself.

This blog challenge is called Share Your World. So, here’s sharing a piece of my world:

Does your first or middle name have any significance (or were you named after another family member)?

Yes! My middle name is: 1. my mother’s first name; 2. my maternal great-grandmother’s first name; and 3. my paternal great-grandmother’s middle name. Whew! I’m not exactly sure who of the three I’m named for. But I like to think it’s after my mother, which lets a part of her live on through me.

Music or silence while working?

Definetely music. It feels so eerie to work in silence. I’m in the habit of playing Pandora quietly in my office all day at work, and it’s worth the $4/month subscription fee. It’s usually tuned to instrumental, hymns, chill, country, or spa, depending on my mood.

If you had a special place for your three most special possessions (not including photos, electronics, people or animals), what would they be?

I think this question is asking what the special possessions would be and not where they would be, but it’s kind of hard to know by the way it’s worded.


Books: I heart my books, and would be so upset if I ever lost them.

Memento Box: Technically, these are plural memento boxes. I have a few shoe boxes filled with cards, letters, event programs, pet collars and tags, ticket stubs, etc. that I’ve collected since childhood. Opening them up is a blast of nostalgia, so I only do so every few years.

Kitchen Stuff: Sorry if that sounds lame—but after eliminating pics, electronics, people, and pets, I struggled to come up with a number three for this list. I picked my kitchen gadgets since I love to cook so much. I’d be majorly bummed to come home to a house full of healthy food, but no way to prepare any of it.

The Never List: What are things you know you will never do?

Walk away from my faith. God’s been way too good to me to ever consider not seeking after Him daily.

Go to an Eagles game. For years now, my best friend has been pestering me to to go a game with her. But I just can’t summon up enough oomph to even remotely care about football. I think it’s some kind of law that Philly people are all die hard obnoxious Eagles fans and I missed the memo. But I just…can’t… yeah, sports will never interest me.

Own a reptile. I love animals, but reptiles kind of skeeze me out. They’re either slimy or terribly dry, and some come with forked tongues(!). *shudder.* No thanks.

Optional bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

Last week was full of small moments of gratitude, from a healthy vet checkup for Kitty to the first day of spring.

On that note, one of my personal challenges in 2017 has been to keep a Jar of Gratitude. Essentially, my jar of gratitude is a repurposed spaghetti sauce jar which I blinged out with scrapbooking supplies and glitter so I’d enjoy looking at it each day. I keep a small notepad and pen beside the jar and jot down what I’m grateful for each evening and add a slip to the jar. It’s become a family affair, as Jake has been doing it too (I’ve yet to catch Puppy adding to the jar; his only interest in jars is if they hold dog treats. And I don’t think the cats are grateful for much of anything… ever). At the end of the year we’ll empty out the slips, put them in date order, and look back over all the blessings small and large that 2017 held…. Or maybe we’ll do it on Thanksgiving. We haven’t decided yet.

As for “What I’m looking forward to in the week coming up,” I’m looking forward so much to Jake and my trip this weekend! He’s whisking me off to a mystery location, so it’s like mind-wracking to pack: Do I bring a sweater or a sundress? A bathing suit or hiking boots? My solution might just be to bring some of everything! I’m the worst trip packer in the universe, because I tend to over-prepare for any remote possibility. Anyway, I’m looking forward to our mystery trip weekend and time spent with my wonderful husband.



Two Year Blogoversary Musings

Whaaaaa? How has it already been two years?! Wow: time has flown. I wouldn’t have even known about this anniversary unless WordPress hadn’t sent me this the other day:


In hindsight, I wish I’d started this blog two years before I did. I had no clue that there was a niche forum for fertility bloggers… or that anyone even blogged about this kind of very personal topic at all.

Starting this blog in 2015 came at the end of an informal six-month deadline I’d given myself. We’d already been TTC for several years, but I’d told myself back in September 2014 that—if we weren’t pregnant in six months—then I’d go back to see a new reproductive endocrinologist. I’d just have a quick tune-up surgery for me and some testing done for Jake. Presto chango,  we’d be all set to go, right? How I wish it’d been that simple.

When I began blogging here, I’d just scheduled a consultation with an RE, the ill-advised Dr. B who I eventually fired. I was choosing to reopen the door to reproductive medical intervention. Until that time I’d only had an antral follicle count and several surgeries, after which my docs would give me windows of either six months or a year to get pregnant naturally (maybe ‘naturally’ isn’t the best choice of words, and I hope no one takes that the wrong way). When I began this blog, three years had passed since my last operation, much longer than the little sliver of time promised after surgery.

I never imagined that infertility would lead me down the road that it has, though God has laid a path for me that I would not have chosen to walk myself. I feel humbled by this road, as it has given me greater empathy and compassion for women facing this struggle and caused me to seek deeper into my faith.

On a lighter note, this infertility sojourn has also taught me a whole new language to decipher—all in acronyms nonetheless!—which I kind of like to think that I’ve mastered by now. Conquering that makes me feel all medical-like, like I can read message boards and blog posts without having to refer back to a list of acronyms to know what it was that I’d just read.

My endeavor lately has been to thank God in all circumstances…. including and especially infertility. Among other things, had it not been for infertility and this blog, then I wouldn’t have been able to connect with such amazing women all around the globe over a common goal. I wouldn’t have borne witness to so many of your miracles and triumphs, or been able to pray for you in your times of waiting , or lent a shoulder to cry on during the tough times.  I feel privileged to have met so many genuinely wonderful ladies through this medium who are sojourning through the same battlefield.

Next year though? Next year when WordPress sends my three-year achievement, I plan to be blogging about my pregnancy or sharing the birth story of my baby, and to give God all the glory for it.

And even if my time still hasn’t come by then, I’d like to stay awhile and read about yours.


One Lovely Blog Award


I’ve been nominated by my new friend, Delayed But Not Denied, for the One Lovely Blog Award! Please take a moment to check out her site, she is a relatively new blogger here and is such an encouragement to me, as well as being a fellow sister in Christ. Thank you, Delayed But Not Denied, for the nomination. I look forward to following you on your sojourn and celebrating our miracle babies someday soon!

Here are the Rules:


  1. Thank the person that nominated you and leave a link to their blog
  2. Post about the award
  3. Share seven facts about yourself
  4. Nominate other people (15 at most)
  5. Tell your nominees the good news!

Okay, 7 things about me… hmm. Let’s see:

  1. I like to pretend that I can play the piano. We have one at home and I can [sort of] remember from my childhood lessons how to read music. I can even remember a decent amount of tunes I once knew! The fact is, I’m probably definitely much rustier at playing that I like to imagine… maybe adult lessons are in order.
  2. I also like to think that I can carry a tune. Jake enjoys informing me that I, in fact, cannot carry a tune in a bucket. But I still sing anyway… especially at church… loudly. Which he just loves.
  3. My ultimate dream is to one day own and operate an animal rescue. All critters welcome! In the meantime, I’m completely okay with rescuing as many critters as I can fit in my home without becoming, well, that weird animal-hoarding lady.
  4. I’m a paralegal and I LOVE my field of work! I have my bachelor’s degree in legal studies and am currently studying for a voluntary national certification test, which I am taking next week (eek!). Nervous!
  5. Next year I’ll have known my husband for exactly half of my life. We met when I was I was 18 and he was 24. Man, okay now I feel old….
  6. I’ve become a total e-book snob. I love to read so much, but don’t have tons of room to store books. Hence, my e-reader gets lots of action.
  7. I’m also a coffee aficionado. I loooooove coffee, perhaps a bit too much. TTC = limited caffeine intake, so I’m often at odds with myself and my love of the  coffea arabica bean.



Now, for the nominations! I nominate:

  1. Angela at Surviving Infertility
  2. Lisa at Bloomin Uterus
  3. AKL at Baby Wanted! An IVF Journey
  4. 30yr Old Nothing at Tales of a 30 Year Old Nothing
  5. Single Gene Me at Single Gene Me
  6. Meghan at Whistle While You Wait